A Thousand Years..Err..Eternity

This song makes me all mushy... I just found out it is from the Breaking Dawn Soundtrack too. I just LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! 

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

[Chorus:]
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Tough Day

:::Big Sigh:::

It is no surprise, I have been in a funk lately; super stressed, anxiety, worried, frustrated.. I could go on. 

My mother and I have never been really close, and I did not have her in my life full time for very long. She has a lot of mental problems and has moderate autism, but has a heart filled with so much love. She has overcome so many obstacles and has worked so hard to be where she is now. 

8 years ago my mother went into remission from breast cancer. It was tough on her and we almost lost her through the battle. But she made it through and has been in remission for 8 years. Until today. I got the call, and it is back. I heard the words I never wanted to hear from her. " I am not getting a mastectomy and I am not getting treatment this time"  My heart sank. I have been numb ever since. It is her choice and her mind might change, but the reality of losing my mother really sank in. No, we do not have a strong , super close relationship, but she is still my mom. 

So, today ends, and tomorrow will start new, but I do not have a very bright outlook on things right now. This year has been tough, and I don't want to focus on the negative, but it really has been a struggle to keep my head up at times. 

5 grateful things

prayer-faith- determination- Eternal families- school almost done 

Day 8 and Memory Lane

Day 8 is favorite color.This is my new favorite color. It is just awesome.

This is a picture of our newly painted bathroom. I just love how vibrant it is and how well it goes with black as well as brown.

I cleaned out the hallway closet today, that I am ashamed to admit has not been touched since we moved in. everything has just gotten shoved in there through the past 3 years. I found my memory box that I kept through the first year Rex and I dated. I found the first Christmas Card Rex gave me, my corsage from the Sweetheart Ball, Pictures, love letters (actual handwritten letters..not emails or texts) and my favorite picture of us.

This is from August of 2001, just 8 months into our relationship. We were in San Diego, I was 17, he was 21. We were at the mall and found one of those kiosks that take your picture then sketch it. Man we look like babies!!! I suppose we were! It just amazes me, that we have been together non stop for almost 11 years now. Time does fly.

5 grateful things
purging junk, memories, keepsakes, evaluating, eternal love 

Bits and Thoughts for Friday

This past week has been one of deep and sincere thought of life and spiritual well being. My life, to most is nothing special and has been nothing of spectacular occasions or events, but it has been special and spectacular to me and most importantly, Heavenly Father. I have had my struggles and taken the rough road in some instances, but in a lot of other areas, I have been thoroughly blessed beyond anything I could imagine.  My marriage is strong and more sturdy year by year, trial by trial, argument by argument. I have a partnership, friendship, romance and companion who I can be with endlessly. He knows me, accepts me, teaches me and guides me through our life together. I can be me.. all the time, any time, and he brings me back to me when I need it most.
   I was given 3 boys to show me what love really is, and how true faith can be. I have done things in my life for them that I never thought I would do. They make me less selfish and want to be a better mother and wife for them. Their hearts are so true and so pure that only one being could create such great souls, Heavenly Father. They are unique, but made to be in our family forever. They are the reason for my family to stay strong and strive to be the best we can be daily.
  I believe that like everyone, our family has a purpose. Our purpose may not seem grand, or monumental, but it is significant in the lives of others. We are here for many reasons, but the Bateman's, I believe, are here to guide, teach, consult, learn and serve. I just know, and my family knows. We have always been placed into positions to do these such things, and we will continue to do so.
  Our family has been blessed with a great comfort this past week within our home an din our lives. I can't explain how, or when, or why, but it is there, and it is grand. I hope I am not sounding proud, or overly spiritual. I just had to write the wonderful  feelings we have experienced as a family this week and what we have learned and concluded through our daily prayer and scripture reading as a family. It is all such a blessing.

Early Birthday and Rex's Adventure

So my birthday was mostly on Monday. It was a great great day!!
It started with meeting up with a good old friend, who I have known since 1997... crazy..... ahh jr. high the old days huh Liz?

It was such a nice visit and so good to catch up

And Jamba Juice was an added bonus. It was a nice start to a wonderful day!

I then was instructed to hurry home, because Rex had to go to work. So I rushed home gathered the kidos and went to Jolyne's for lunch. It was tasty too and nice to catch up. After a while, I was getting ready to go home to get ready to go have lunch with Rex, when he walked in the door and said he got off work early.
 We chatted a while longer then Rex decided we needed to go home because he had to get the mail.....we turned the corner to the house and this is what I saw.

Rex did not work on Monday, but sent me away with friends who held me hostage for the day while he and lots of good friends got a whole fence up!!

What a nice gift!! I am so excited to have a little more privacy and be able to send the kidos out to play with out worrying.

After that surprise, we got spoiled by the Dickinsons with a wonderful meal of Mexican cuisine! Delish!


Here are my other treats

 A HUGE Vera Bradly bag that came with a matching check book holder, coin purse, pencil bag and make up bag. 

 

I haven't gotten this one yet, but Rex bought it off ebay yesterday for me. I LOVE LOVE LOVE this bag!! It is reversible too!!  EEKK! I love purses!

And this little gem was from my 3 boys. A new iPod shuffle engraved on the back " XOXOXOX Love your Boys" Rex tried to change the wording after he ordered it to say " Sara's Berkin Bag" but it was already shipped off. so I named it Berkin Bag on my iTunes account :)

Oops, I forgot the pic of my super cute apron. I will post that later.
 So, I was spoiled rotten and love it!!! I am very grateful for everyone and their efforts to make my early birthday a special day!!

Yesterday (my actual birthday) Rex got all of his teeth pulled and his dentures put in. He looks SO different but still cute. He already feels a TON better and is recovering well. It was scary at first because he was so dizzy and nauseous but after a good long nap, some yogurt and ice he was up and about and feeling great.

I will post pics of him once the swelling goes down some more.

Hope everyone is having a great 1st week of spring!!!!

Swoon

How amazing is my hubby ??? He was trying to birthday shop for me, and knows my love of purses....
So, he actually remembered from my million times of watching Gilmore Girls, when Logan gave Rori a Birkin Bag. He thought it would be funny if he could get me one for my birthday just like the one from the show, but soon discovered that the starting price for this beauty is $2500, so the Birkin Bag for Sara is a no go, but just him thinking of it, and remembering made me all mushy gushy. What a guy!

Pulling Me Into Valentines Day

So, as most of you know, I detest Valentine's Day. Mushy gushy --- pukey pink and white every where. Yuck. I know, I know.. it is suppose to be that way, but I just can't handle it.And I know... I just made my Blog all pink and white......I am trying.
 This year, Rex is bound and determined to get me in the mushy gushy pukey mood. I awoke this morning to a beautiful bouquet of  mixed flowers ( I am also not a "roses" kind of girl) They are beautiful! Rex thinks that we should celebrate Valentine's Day this year... for some reason or another. He said the flowers were just a test run of big things to come. Does this mean I need to start planning??  I have to say a nice big box of chocolate caraemls sound SO good right now. Sorry Jolyne... I could eat a whole box at this point. Maybe he can special order some sugar free fat free AMAZING tasting ones from a magician.
Here are some pics of my flowers.

5 grateful things
Being pulled out of my comfort zone-surprises-sleep-beauty-writing

Wishing Away Time

There are so many days that I try and treasure. I try to hold on the the great moments, and remember the details of these days. There are so many days that I regrettably wish away the days though too. I forgot how hard 2 year olds are. - And 5 year olds- and 7 year olds. Trying to get anything done lately is difficult. Benji is getting in molars, not sleeping much, and loving to share trying to share. It it so difficult. It is hard some days to enjoy the younger days of the boys, but I try and think of at least 3 great moments at night that we had and move on. So, I will try to not wish away the time I have with them and enjoy what is left of the days of hugs, kisses, sticky door knobs, crayon marked doors, spills, giggles and screaming matches. Life is too short to wish for older children.

5 grateful things
thought-motivation-time-endless snuggles-jello 

10 Years Ago

 

10 years ago today, I was 16, working at Hastings (and hating it), but I had a nice glimmer of happiness whenever my good friend Rex would stop by on my lunches, meet me after work and even call in sick for me when I really did not want to go scan movies and books. 

On December 28th, at 11pm, that Mr. Rex Bateman not only asked me to be his girl, but his best friend and companion through and through. Now, I know this is not a traditional date to celebrate, but this date is more important to us than any other date ( the day we got sealed is up there and fighting for the top position). We have not separated, broken up,or left each others side since that day 10 years ago. In 10 years, we have- had three wonderful boys, been through scary and tough times, bought our home, made life changing decisions, leaned, grew and helped one another along through it all. He is the one person I can turn to day or night, even when I am mad at him. He understands my strange looks, my quirky habits, and what it means when I say : "I am tired" 

I could not ask for more and look forward to many more years to celebrate and more adventures to take on! 

10th Anniversary Traditional Gift:

Tin or aluminum. The pliability of tin and aluminum is a symbol of how a successful marriage needs to be flexible and durable and how it can be bent without being broken.

I think will get him a 12 pack of Pepsi  as a gift.



5 grateful things
My Rexy* Pet Names* VERY giving people, who think of us and make our days special* Love* silly memories 

Sword in the stone - squirrels

So Rex and I use to watch Disney movies all the time when we were first dating. Sworn in the Stone is one of our favorites. I am trying to make a cute Christmas ornament for Rex. In this clip at 0:39 exactly, the squirrels both put their hands on each others noses. Rex and I to this day do that to one another as a silent, I love you, between the two of us. We have been doing this for almost 10 years now. I cannot find a picture of the particular moment for the ornament. Does anyone know how to take the picture from the video, or can anyone find me a picture of that? leave a comment or email me! Thanks!!

5 grateful things
cold meds * kids who know when to take a nap * Thanksgiving coming up! * sleep * good friends

To My Father and My Husband

Dear Daddy,
Through the years I think we have both learned a lot from each other. Our relationship has never been "normal" or that of other fathers and daughters but I wouldn't change it for anything. Thank you for all you do for me and the many lessons you have taught me.

To My Husband,
I cannot believe that this is the 6th year of celebrating fathers day with you. I never imagined that our lives would lead us in the directions it has, yet here we are.
You are a phenomenal father and husband. You are always there for me and the boys no matter how tired or wore down you are. Even after a 16 hour day, and 8 days straight of working, you still find time to play, laugh and love all of us. Thank you for guiding and teaching our boys everything from how to fix their bikes to teaching them how to treat a lady and what their role is in life to be a man. Thank you for working so hard so I am able to see the precious moments that you so often miss out on. I am beyond grateful for this opportunity you have given me!
I could not ask for anything more. Love you forever, from here to eternity