:::Big Sigh:::
It is no surprise, I have been in a funk lately; super stressed, anxiety, worried, frustrated.. I could go on.
My mother and I have never been really close, and I did not have her in my life full time for very long. She has a lot of mental problems and has moderate autism, but has a heart filled with so much love. She has overcome so many obstacles and has worked so hard to be where she is now.
8 years ago my mother went into remission from breast cancer. It was tough on her and we almost lost her through the battle. But she made it through and has been in remission for 8 years. Until today. I got the call, and it is back. I heard the words I never wanted to hear from her. " I am not getting a mastectomy and I am not getting treatment this time" My heart sank. I have been numb ever since. It is her choice and her mind might change, but the reality of losing my mother really sank in. No, we do not have a strong , super close relationship, but she is still my mom.
So, today ends, and tomorrow will start new, but I do not have a very bright outlook on things right now. This year has been tough, and I don't want to focus on the negative, but it really has been a struggle to keep my head up at times.
5 grateful things
prayer-faith- determination- Eternal families- school almost done
3 comments:
Oh, my old friend, I'm so sorry to hear this. What is it with our moms and cancer this year?! I won't go on with platitudes...but if you need to talk, I'm here for you. Love ya.
Sara, love you girl! I am so sorry to hear the news of your mother. Remember the God we serve is bigger than all things. trust Him for healing for your mother, as will I. I pray the Lord give you peace and comfort during this devastating time. I pray that each day he shines his light even brighter than the day before in your life. Love you!
I'm so sorry Sara. Such a difficult thing to go through. You are in my prayers.
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