Another Loss

This week marks the beginning of my life with out any grandparents. It is a sad spot to be in. My maternal grandmother passed away Friday, very very unexpectedly. I feel as if there is an elephant sitting on my chest. I can't breath or even fully comprehend it all. 2014 and my first year in my 30's has been less than fulfilling. I am trying to remain faithful and keep in mind all the things people say to you, like "she is in a better place" and "celebrate her life and remember the good times" but it is really hard.